I've made the mistake of not trying.
In work, in relationships, I keep not putting myself out there. Trying to improve my work situation, trying to be receptive to possible partners: I've kept not doing that, out of worries that I'd screw up.
Which means, for instance, I have not enough experience being in relationships. All you who lived through relationship mistakes in your teens and 20s? I've barely had that experience. And now I wonder how many mistakes I'll make in my attempts to be part of a relationship. WHICH HAPPEN, CHRIS, AND WHEN THEY DO YOU DEAL WITH THEM, CHRIS.
My fear of worst-case scenarios could lead to me thinking that only the worst-case scenarios are possible. It's a trap. I'm trying to climb out of it.
Because good is possible.
My being there for a Ms. Whomever as a partner is possible. I've done it. And that's what's worth the mistakes, which everyone makes. Because it's also a mistake not to try.
I forgot that. It's time to remember that.
