And then went straight home from the office instead of playing Geek Trivia, because I needed to balance out the fun I'd have at the event with whether I'd get too spun up to really enjoy myself.
Trivia is one of the few events where I get truly competitive. I am aware that it is (mostly) trivial, with the biggest exception in my life being the time I won a trip to San Diego (!) with my trivia knowledge. I do not deny that that was supremely cool. And Geek Trivia is hosted with flair and amusing yelling by Cort Webber and Bobby Roberts, good guys who are good writers and are getting ready to do other things than host this every other week. But too often, at this rare event that makes me competitive, it makes me a jerk. More likely to yell, and more likely to be a know-it-all.
Am I connecting well to people at this event? A few people. but mostly I either nod at people or yell at them. Or get pissy if someone is wrong or doesn't listen to me (and that hasn't happened in a long time, so why am I so concerned that it could happen?). And I usually don't mind being a know-it-all, but it's more interesting to me to talk about why the answer to X is Z, and there's no time at trivia to do that. The answer to X is Z; now MOVE ON! One time at Geek Trivia, a teammate started trying to tell a funny story, and didn't seem to notice that he was about to talk over Cort and Bobby asking the next question; I wanted to yell at him "faster and funnier! Finish, please!" But he was too wrapped up in Trying To Be Funny, and was oblivious to the moment. And I was losing my patience.
I like being patient. And last night I think I needed to be patient, not spun-up.
I do plan to be at Geek Trivia the next two times, including -- especially -- the last time. And I plan to be more ready to be That Way. I didn't want to be That Way last night.