I also hate being cynical.
It's a conundrum, I tell you.
But being cynical is, I think, easy. It's a way to seem to engage while not engaging, to seem to think without really thinking.
So I don't react to certain things I want to react to, because I don't want to react cynically. (And also because I'm not sure I can articulate my reactions cogently enough to be decently understood, which is an overlapping concern but not really the same one.)
I'll get over it. But that is one place my head is at, right now.