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I miss

Right now...







I miss working.

I miss driving.

I miss traveling: travel for work, travel to sight-see, travel to visit people.

I miss a lot of friends.

I miss visiting pets: the dog Sophie who lived with my family for 14 of her 16 years (we got her when she was 2), the cats I met when I moved into the house where I currently live, other friends' and families' pets...just pets, in general.

I miss certain people I met through blogging who no longer blog and who I hope are doing OK. I sometimes wish they'd blog again, but that's their call, not mine.

I miss being a partner.

I miss being naked with someone who likes seeing me naked and who I like to see naked too.

Much of what I miss, is on hold until I find work again. As I've admitted, I'd feel weird about asking someone out while I'm in my current situation; I fear I wouldn't be a good partner while in this situation. I fear I'd be dating for the wrong reasons. This doesn't keep me from noticing interesting, available people and going I hope she was interested, too. I'm also not a one-night-stand kind of person, wanting to hook up briefly and nothing else, so that's not an option either.

Other reasons things are on hold: no driving because my car needs work. No pets of mine because I currently couldn't support any properly. I could probably visit more friends, though; it's worth the effort.

I miss a lot.

I rarely write Friends-Locked entries in my blog, but I feel that writing this [now unlocked], with an audience limited by design, might help. I wanted to get this down in an entry.

This might help. I want to miss less.

Comments

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bonnie_rocks
Mar. 20th, 2018 10:00 pm (UTC)
::Huggles::

~*::Meow::*~
chris_walsh
Mar. 20th, 2018 10:20 pm (UTC)
Thank you. Really, thank you.
felisdemens
Mar. 22nd, 2018 03:21 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry things are so static right now. I like that you have an articulated list of goals for when things become more fluid, though.
chris_walsh
Mar. 22nd, 2018 04:21 pm (UTC)
Thank you. It took me a while to get to this point, but I feel that at least articulating this (especially about the partner stuff) was a really needed step. It's been a very long time since I've dated, and longer since I was a partner.

Again, I hope these thoughts help. Meanwhile, I hope you're well.
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