At least yesterday I was productive — getting the tax stuff in the mail, getting a long walk done, treating myself to dinner out (at the patio at the Space Room, on Hawthorne), and buying some basic groceries before heading home — but I was feeling a mix of emotions while doing all that. And feeling a little deflated by some of those emotions.
But I need to remember the alternative: not feeling as much. Okay, technically that's an alternative; plenty of people feel more. But I worry more about not feeling so much, not being as familiar with emotions, because...that's why sociopaths can do. Experiencing emotions from a remove, not quite connected to theirs, but able to seem connected to emotions. I've known a few sociopaths; I know from experience. From enough experience.
I'm still not a sociopath.
I'll keep trying not to be one.