I'm really low on energy at the moment, and I'm sore and cranky, and I have loads to do.
So I'm less than sunny right now. I apologize to my friends. (I don't want to apologize to the people I don't like, but I like all of you who can read this...)
I don't want to rant too much about work, which is a big source of my issues right now, but I'm using the words "neurotic" and "toxic" to describe my office right now. Bad sign.
And I got my first "corrective counseling" yesterday, over substandard work by me. First warning ever on this job, over two-and-a-half years into it.
I need to do better.
I feel I have no incentive to do better.
I don't like being like this. I don't like being substandard. I don't like having not-enough energy to be truly supportive to my friends, several of whom have been through plenty of their own difficult crap lately. I want to be better, to myself and to my family and friends. I want to get back to being shiny and happy.
Wish me good luck.