As I've already told a few people (my parents, some co-workers, and rafaela), the job I've been in for the last 3 1/2 years is getting phased out. My company and the hospital where I work have decided there isn't enough on-site work to make it worth it for me to work there. This job will end sometime within the next two weeks.
I'm mentally juggling a few options: a home-based research job for my company, or a few admin assistant-type jobs for the hospital itself. I'll be talking to people starting today about these jobs. Likely tomorrow I'll work online from home. It's a test: do I feel capable of working a full-time job from home?
I'd really prefer not to be dealing with this now, after my sick time -- my energy's still low after my time off being ill -- but I knew it was going to happen eventually. Still, as I told co-worker and friend David, "I've gone from one kind of limbo to another."
Meanwhile, I've been nervous: spent a lot of yesterday nervous, and became nervous again almost immediately upon waking up this morning. I'm talking trouble-eating nervousness. (I threw out half of my lunch yesterday, which I almost never do.) But all's I can do is all's I can do, so I'll do that. And hope I don't throw up.
I know yesterday sucked even worse for a lot of you, and I wish it weren't for you. You guys have been in my thoughts.